I woke up this morning to a message saying, "have a blessed day, i love you"...funny how something so simple can alter a moment, or an entire day even! It inspired me to smile, it filled my heart with love, gratitude and simple joy this morning. Often times, I don't think we take enough time to just reach out. And it made me want to share that feeling with the special people in my life, so I paid it forward and in my own crazy, silly fashion, sent out messages to a select few in my life and shared the love. It's fantastic when you get responses back from people and you can actually FEEL that you made a difference in their morning. That was such a reward to my heart. So, thank you for the message, and for thinking me worthy of it and taking the time to do it.
I have a birthday coming up, my 40th....and I keep getting asked, "how are you handling the arrival of 40?" I'm handling it just fine, as a matter of fact, I am actually pretty grateful. I mean, let's just be honest, there are people who don't make it to see 40 years of life, people who are alive, but aren't really living they are merely existing; I am going to be 40 years old, and have lived my life, am living my life! I enjoy each day, I live it like it is a gift, (even though sometimes I have to be reminded) I don't feel like I am 40 in the sense that I am old, but yes, I have lived and experienced 40 years of life for sure, and I am so thankful for it!
I am throwing a kick ass party this weekend, halloween costumes, my great friends and family, and even though for a moment I wallowed in self pity because ~boo hoo I have to plan my own party~ I soon realized that being able to plan my party and do it the way I want it, is a gift too :) And the truth is? I have always been the party planner, it's just something I'm good at, and something I truly enjoy doing for those in my life. So today, I have been pondering what I will give myself this year; a mani/pedi day? An outfit perhaps? Hmmmm....I don't know yet, but I know that I will enjoy whatever I decide!
The point of this "mindful moment" today is that I woke to this day feeling loved, blessed and cared for. I have some great people in my world, and even those who challenge me are cherished because they too offer me learning and growth opportunities. Something has changed in me again lately, my spirit feels so free, my heart so full of love, I feel like so much has just been lifted from my shoulders, like I have just let it all wash away and just know that whatever will be, is what's meant to be. I have been dancing again, literally! Just good ole' living room, candle-light dancing to some of my favorite music, it just feels good to be in the drivers seat in my life, it feels good to be ME. I feel so much love and appreciation from my son lately, it seems that absence really does make the heart grow fonder (and I think he misses his mom). I am so proud of him, so blessed by his presence in my life, and just so honored to be so loved and respected by him. And let me not forget the amazing and beautiful Taurus in my life. My baby girl. I see her changing inside and out, growing, learning, stretching her wings, and she amazes me with her spirit and tenacity. And admittedly, sometimes she scares me too, because I see her dad and myself in her, in some of the ways I wish she wouldn't have picked up so well...Stubbornness can be a good thing though, at least that's what I will keep telling myself!
It's time to move on for the day; May we all be blessed, loved and Appreciated! God Bless!
~Peace
